Tuesday, December 11, 2012

Thankful Tuesday

Today is Thankful Tuesday. Well, today has been rough, I'll just be honest. I'll just spit it out because it's too hard in too many ways to explain but I found out I am having a miscarriage. We found out we were pregnant and we were so excited that we were going to be able to tell our family for Christmas but things just aren't right. I spent the afternoon in the doctor's office yesterday finding out the details of this awful situation. The saddest part is that I most likely will just have to pass the baby on my own. The hormone levels are saying things are not right and will not be right but the baby is still alive .... and so we wait.... with the doctors saying "do not hold on to any hope."

I cannot begin to explain all my thoughts. I am sad. The day before yesterday (before I knew things weren't ok) I had the verse from Job in my head "Though He slay me, yet I will hope in Him." Job 13:15 and when I found out the news my soul screamed that verse at the top of its lungs. I do hope in Him, trust Him, believe Him, and know that He is sovereign.

In Romans 5 it says, "Moreover [let us also be full of joy now!] let us exult and triumph in our troubles and rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that pressure and affliction and hardship produce patient and unswerving endurance. And endurance (fortitude) develops maturity of character (approved faith and tried integrity). And character [of this sort] produces [the habit of] joyful and confident hope of eternal salvation. Such hope never disappoints or deludes or shames us, for God’s love has been poured out in our hearts through the Holy Spirit Who has been given to us.

My hope is in Christ, in His word, in the fact this this life is not all there is and that every single thing, every suffering in this life has a purpose. My hope is in my Savior. The one who knows, sees, and understands all and can and will work all things together for my good and His glory. 

"If only for this life we have hope in Christ, we are of all people we are most to be pitied." 1 Corinthians 15:9    
but if we have the hope of Christ and eternal salvation and we end up in eternity with Christ in heaven we are most to be envied.

Today, I am thankful for HOPE. But, not just hope, I am thankful for the good things that God has given to me. For every good and perfect thing comes form above. James 1:17

I am thankful to God for these two little gifts that I let basically do whatever they wanted today! :)

And I am thankful for this little bun! It was Adelyn's first time to be able to wear a bun to ballet and it was adorable!! (to say the least!)