Four years ago if you told me I would be living in Memphis, Tennessee I probably would have laughed out loud at you. Maybe not but at least I would have thought in my mind (with a smile on my face, of course) you were lying and maybe crazy.
To be honest, the very last place Adam and I ever thought we would end up was back in Memphis. When we moved to Marysville, we believed we would be there for the rest of our lives. My vision for my life as always been to move away to do some sort of mission work. It's not that I don't like Memphis or being with my friends and family; it was just not on my plan for my life. God is constantly surprising me with HIS plans for my life.
And so we are here, in Memphis. We have been here for almost two months, more certain than almost anything in our lives that He called us by His word out of Ohio and provided us with a wonderful place to live and have a respite.
And here "we walk by faith and not by sight." And we rest in what we know God has called us to do and we wait.
I love what Katie Davis says in her book: "I must be faithful only to what God has called me to, even if earthly tangible results or successes are not seen."
The past two days The Lord has given me me some glimpses as to blessings He wants to give to us during our time in Memphis however long it is.
Last night, my dad, Anita, me and the girls were just sitting around the table while Adam was off playing music for a youth group and it hit me that in Ohio I was always alone with the girls. I didn't have a table full of people who all loved each other sitting around laughing and carrying on while Adam was gone.
And today, today me and the girls went to visit my grandparents and my heart just almost exploded with joy. I thought about the times we went to visit the nursing home in Ohio and how today we got to go and visit with "our own" old people. What an amazing blessing to be able to spend time with my elderly grandparents. I have no idea how many more times me and my girls will be able to visit them.
During this crazy time where my flesh so desperately wants to cry, "Why?!" "What the heck?" and "How much longer?!" I will stop and remember that my God wants to shower me with blessings during this transition time. Its how He works. I will choose to be thankful for the blessings and will cry out with my whole heart : "We walk by faith and not by sight" because we know that "without faith it's impossible to please God!"