Saturday, April 24, 2010

Psalm 145:18-19

So our nights have not been getting any better. I know by now it probably sounds like "waa waa waa waa waa" to those who read often but I assure you to us it is a big deal. The doctor told us Adelyn was completely healthy and after posting that I was not going to let her cry I quickly changed my mind the fifth time she got up that night. We decided to let her cry it out and it did not go so good at all. She cried for two hours and by the end of that time I was bawling and so sad I had let her go that long so I went in to her room and consoled her and she went back to sleep only to sleep for another hour. What are we doing wrong? Is there somehing wrong with her? I ask myself these questions all the time. After this two hour episode, I called the doctor and he said that two hours is too long for a four month old to cry that there must be something wrong and he thinks it might be her reflux. Oh dear, so here we go round in circles again from ear problems to reflux and back again. I know it might seem trivial and is to some extent thinking about all the problems or crises we could be facing but going a month plus without hardly any sleep is a huge crises to us right now. So I found some verses on comfort, really to comfort myself and continue to have hope that God is going to rescue us. I am trying to memorize these so I can say them to myself all day when I need them.

The Lord is near to all who call upon Him, To all who call upon Him in truth. He will fulfill the desire of those who fear Him; He also will hear their cry and save them Psalm 145:18-19

God is teaching me many things through this trial. First, I am one of those people who in the good times of life tends to think I can do life on my own. I can "get it all together" and be good and really that is shoving God out of the picture of my life. I must depend on Him throughout my whole day just to make it taking care of 2 kids so small without sleep. Second, as I wrote in my new year's resolutions I want the Lord to give me patience for my family and boy does no sleep test patience. God is teaching me to rely on Him even for my attitude on the hardest of days.

I know this post is kind of a bummer but I pray I can write soon with the good news that we have figured out the problem and that Adelyn is sleeping great! Until then here are some really fun pictures from this week.

My sweet baby is already in 6 month clothes! Check out that cute tummy!

This is Anabelle playing outside. I feel like she looks like a little model in this picture, if only there wasn't a car in the background, well, maybe I can get Adam to photoshop it out.

That's all for now. Hope you are all having a good weekend. We are still in our pjs today! Gotta love rainy Saturdays in your pjs!


Lauren said...

Bless your heart! It does not sound "waa waa waa," life is really hard when you can't sleep! Really, Really hard! And you have a lot to do during the day! I could give you a whole litany of advice, but I know you are trying all the obvious and RIGHT things. Just hang in there. I don't mean to sound trite, but eventually (hopefully soon?!) you'll get to sleep and the fog will lift.

I do think you need to try extra hard to give yourself a break during the day if at all possible. For at least a couple days out of the week do ONLY the essentials for the girls, and as much as possible try to get them to veg-out with you. This is NOT being lazy, it is conserving your energy so that you can meet your childrens' needs. It is being wise and taking care of yourself.

Nicole said...

Praying you get more sleep soon. I definitely know that qualifies as a crisis--there is only so long you can deal with no sleep! Poor Adelyn. You're doing a great job mama and just go with your gut and soon it will be over! You are so wise to lean on the Word of God to get you through each day. He is sufficient!

Ben and Audrey said...

sweet ashley. i know what you are going through. we are having a really hard time with Jovie too. we can't figure out how to help her with her reflux. she is sleeping ok at night but during the day, she cries a lot & wants to be held all day. and its so hard to get her to nap. so i can't get anything done during the day. i wish i had some advice to help you. all i can do is tell you what we do for Jovie at night.

she sleeps swaddled tightly. you can buy them online at or we use the kiddopotomus brand. then she sleeps propped up on her boppy nursing pillow (inside her bassinette). she sleeps on her side. i know people say "don't let your baby sleep on their side or their tummies) but you know what, if it works, it works. at some point you just gotta trust the Lord. Jovie has even slept on her tummy some. it helps her. if she can lift her head, then she'll be fine.

i'm gonna call you soon. please know i'm praying for you. love you so much!

Lane said...

I hate you aren't getting any sleep and you definitely aren't complaining too much about it...because that's HARD to deal with! I pray that you will quickly find out what is going on with your sweet baby and that you all will get rest SOON!

Brooke said...

Bless your heart! I totally understand! Our son, Nolan, is 7 months old and when he was a newborn we had the similar issues. I wasn't as strong as you and just put him in bed with us. A no-no I know but I HAD to get some sleep! Anyways, NOlans issue was reflux. And once we got some zantac he was a different baby.

Have you tried swaddling her and proping her up in her boppy at night? We never tried that but I know several mommies that have said that works. We would've tried it but didn't know about it at the time. Nolan has never been able to sleep on his back. When we finally moved him to his bassinet on his belly with an angel monitor under the pad. It worked. I was paranoid about doing this but I had to remind myself that we had to get some sleep and that everyone in my generation slept on thier tummies.

Also, thank you so much for being so honest about when things are going good that you feel like you can do it all yourself. I am the same way and I am trying so hard to work on it. I thought I was the only one who did this and felt like such a weak christian because of it. Thank you for making me realize I am not alone!

Ashley Fisher :) said...

Thank you all so much for caring and taking time to comment. I truly appreciate it! I am working on all the suggestions, keep them coming! I need all the help I can get!!