So our nights have not been getting any better. I know by now it probably sounds like "waa waa waa waa waa" to those who read often but I assure you to us it is a big deal. The doctor told us Adelyn was completely healthy and after posting that I was not going to let her cry I quickly changed my mind the fifth time she got up that night. We decided to let her cry it out and it did not go so good at all. She cried for two hours and by the end of that time I was bawling and so sad I had let her go that long so I went in to her room and consoled her and she went back to sleep only to sleep for another hour. What are we doing wrong? Is there somehing wrong with her? I ask myself these questions all the time. After this two hour episode, I called the doctor and he said that two hours is too long for a four month old to cry that there must be something wrong and he thinks it might be her reflux. Oh dear, so here we go round in circles again from ear problems to reflux and back again. I know it might seem trivial and is to some extent thinking about all the problems or crises we could be facing but going a month plus without hardly any sleep is a huge crises to us right now. So I found some verses on comfort, really to comfort myself and continue to have hope that God is going to rescue us. I am trying to memorize these so I can say them to myself all day when I need them.
The Lord is near to all who call upon Him, To all who call upon Him in truth. He will fulfill the desire of those who fear Him; He also will hear their cry and save them Psalm 145:18-19
God is teaching me many things through this trial. First, I am one of those people who in the good times of life tends to think I can do life on my own. I can "get it all together" and be good and really that is shoving God out of the picture of my life. I must depend on Him throughout my whole day just to make it taking care of 2 kids so small without sleep. Second, as I wrote in my new year's resolutions I want the Lord to give me patience for my family and boy does no sleep test patience. God is teaching me to rely on Him even for my attitude on the hardest of days.
I know this post is kind of a bummer but I pray I can write soon with the good news that we have figured out the problem and that Adelyn is sleeping great! Until then here are some really fun pictures from this week.
My sweet baby is already in 6 month clothes! Check out that cute tummy!
This is Anabelle playing outside. I feel like she looks like a little model in this picture, if only there wasn't a car in the background, well, maybe I can get Adam to photoshop it out.
That's all for now. Hope you are all having a good weekend. We are still in our pjs today! Gotta love rainy Saturdays in your pjs!