Why I blog....Thankful Everyday

I haven't visited this blog lately and I have missed it tremendously. I can think of a million excuses as to why I haven't visited it (and all million are extremely legit) but really it's that blogging hasn't been a priority lately which is fine except that I have genuinely missed Thankful Tuesdays and writing. Expressing my thoughts through writing has always been very fulfilling to me and I am learning more and more that the reason it is fulfilling to me is that God made me this way and has given me a heart for writing to give Him glory.

I have become tripped up from time to time thinking about blogging and the hows and whys and if it's just purely narcissistic or if there is benefit in it for anyone really (and if I'm really honest most of this comes from my cynical and critical side.) But all of that aside, my soul is now settled in a good place of peace and contentment for right now about blogging. Honestly my heart's desire is that everything I say and do bring glory to God. Does that happen always?! Ummm have you ever been around me? No! BUT it truly is my heart's desire. It reminds me Isaiah 26:8 "Yes Lord, walking in the way of your truth, we wait for you, your name and renown is the desire of our souls." 

So, like I said, here I am again wrestling with why I blog and well frankly, why I do anything I do, and I don't necessarily think it's a bad place to revisit every now and again....

Lately, God has been blessing me spiritually as I have been going through an interesting period of drought in a lot of other areas in my life. I have begged God for over a year for things that right now He has just told me to "wait" on. We all know waiting is not fun and really that we don't like to hear "wait" for an answer to any prayer but through this "wait" I have felt God chiseling on my heart. He has been chiseling pieces out that I thought humanly impossible to live without. I am thankful that He fills the gaps that He never takes away anything without giving me more of Himself. He is just that good to me. And in this season, He has once again showed me how paradoxical the Christian life really is. The more I hurt and want the closer I am drawn to Him. The more self sufficient I am the more I push Him away. This is why The Lord continually calls those He loves into the needest of places... Because He does love us and He knows the best thing for us is to need Him more than we need anything else on earth. It reminds me of Psalm 73:26, "My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever." He is my strength and has and will always be my portion and like Jen Hatmaker says below, that will always be enough.

So, I guess this is my feeble attempt to truly "count it all joy" because really the good and the bad are all God's goodness, it just takes His perspective to see it that way...

-Jen Hatmaker

And it really goes without saying that The Lord has overly blessed my life with some very sweet and fun mini people we call "the crazies" and "the sweetest little buddy":