Friday, June 22, 2012

The Hurt & The Healer and My Journey



(Click on the title to listen.)


Why?
The question that is never far away
The healing doesn’t come from the explained
Jesus please don’t let this go in vain
You’re all I have
All that remains

So here I am
What’s left of me
Where glory meets my suffering

I’m alive
Even though a part of me has died
You take my heart and breathe it back to life
I’ve fallen into Your arms open wide
When the hurt and the healer collide

Breathe
Sometimes I feel it’s all that I can do
Pain so deep that I can hardly move
Just keep my eyes completely fixed on You
Lord take hold and pull me through

So here I am
What’s left of me
Where glory meets my suffering

I’m alive
Even though a part of me has died
You take my heart and breathe it back to life
I’ve fallen into your arms open wide
When the hurt and the healer collide

It’s the moment when humanity
Is overcome by majesty
When grace is ushered in for good
And all our scars are understood
When mercy takes its rightful place
And all these questions fade away
When out of the weakness we must bow
And hear You say “It’s over now”

I’m alive
Even though a part of me has died
You take my heart and breathe it back to life
I’ve fallen into your arms open wide
When The hurt and the healer collide

Jesus come and break my fear
Awake my heart and take my tears
Find Your glory even here
When the hurt and the healer collide

Jesus come and break my fear
Awake my heart and take my tears
Find Your glory even here

Somewhere in the past few months someone sent me this song and I thought of it again today and how awesome it was and I wanted to post it. I love the message that the hurt throws us into the arms of the only one who can really heal us. This is so true and such a testimony of God's power.

God's Glory. The last line is what all of life is about on this earth right? Video Voyeurism is something that few know and understand and it's even something that is hard to picture for yourself if it's never happened to you. Some people think that there is a way to grieve and time limit of grieving such a thing but I assure you it is different for everyone. I will never forget watching the videos taken of me without my knowledge. And sometimes through this journey I have hurt so bad I thought it was going to break me into pieces.

But throughout this 8 month process, I can say that the Lord has done a mighty healing work in my life. Video Voyeurism has changed my life drastically and I definitely have a "new normal" as far as many areas in life go, from trusting people to simply getting in the shower most days but I can say, "Glory to God" the one who has carried me to a place of joy and peace I never knew existed. 

I wish I could say that the journey was over now, but in many ways it is not. But I am thankful that through this period of waiting, hurting, and healing, the Lord has been faithful and patient with me and has allowed me to see a side of His goodness that I would have never known existed and would not trade for anything in this world.
Find Your glory even here Lord, please. 

1 comment:

Janice Brooks said...

Very nice Ashley! Still praying a bunch for you.
Aunt Janice